Quantity Would Be Nice

I'm tired of having so little time to spend doing things I enjoy. I feel like I am running from here to there without being able to take in the moments. I haven't had a full day off in weeks. If I don't have to go to work, I have to go to school. Nine hours at Starbucks or nine hours at Watkins. And then I try to finish assignments and do laundry and hang out with Mason & Maxine and talk to my room mate and.... I want to do something I enjoy without the pressure of having to hurry up and enjoy it because I have to be somewhere soon. That stupid saying about quality time is better than quantity is crap. Because sometimes in order to have quality time you need a certain amount of quantity time to accomplish it.... AAAAAH! What are you doing this weekend? Working. Every weekend. Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Work, work, work, work. What about Tuesday? School. Wednesday? School. And Thursday? School. And the thing that bugs me most is that the reason I am in this cycle is completely financial. I hate that money dictates so much. I have to pay bills. So, I have to work a bunch of hours while going to school. It's not like I'm a corporate workaholic who's doing it to purchase toys, build a bigger house, have nice cars, etc... I hope those who have money realize what a blessing it is. For crying out loud, sometimes I barely get groceries. There's this story I heard the other day that I will post on here soon. Something about how one person is a fishman and works just enough hours to live off so that he can enjoy time with is wife and kids, walking the beach, etc... and then this other man who is a big business type who tells the man he should build his fishing business and stuff to the point where he can sell it for lots and lots of money and retire. And the fisherman asks why would he do all that? And the business man says so that he can enjoy time with his wife and kids and take walks on the beach.... I butchered the story but you get the point. Anyway, I can't even finish my thoughts on this entry because I have to go get ready for school... and drive my car that doesn't have air conditioning... in a city who's temperature was already 92 at 10am. I'd get a new car but I don't have the money. And if I had the money, I'm not sure I'd have the time to go by a car.... see... what a vicious cycle. Good thing I love school and know that in the end,,, it will be worth it. Well, I hope so. Maybe not if I end up missing many more special moments with people.... (sigh).